I officially am down 15.8lbs today!!!!
Yippppeeeee
258.5/227.8/140
Friday, February 13, 2009
Wow.....I am doing it!
I know I haven't written, but that doesn't mean I haven't been doing really well. I have work and school and I barely enough time to eat let alone write.
I officially am down 15.8lbs today!!!!
Yippppeeeee
258.5/227.8/140
I officially am down 15.8lbs today!!!!
Yippppeeeee
258.5/227.8/140
Sunday, January 11, 2009
My 1st Week!
Went pretty well, I did have some cravings, but managed to hold them off till the weekend, I wasn't that great Fri night and Saturday, but today right back following the plan.
So all in all the 1st week wasn't so bad!
New weight: 238.2
258.5/238.2/140
So all in all the 1st week wasn't so bad!
New weight: 238.2
258.5/238.2/140
Monday, January 05, 2009
A New Year.....A New Attitude!
Hi Everyone-
The truth is plain and simple. I screwed up.....BAD.
I did all the BAD habits they tell you not to do....drink water for starters, actually that is were it started and got way way out of control. I was eating solely by drinking water and when I would get stuck, I would drink again and again and again. Now I know that last year wasn't my best year.....but the last 6 months of the year I could have gotten my butt in gear, but I didn't.
Instead I started my Bachelor's degree at night and filled my time and energy up with other things...all the while not seeing what had happened to my almost at one point 60 lb weight loss.
If you are a newbie to the LapBand, don't even read this and think "I would never do that", because I said the SAME EXACT THING. And I was doing quite well. Throw a little stress in my life, lose a job and boom, everything goes to hell in a handbasket.
But that was 2008. Now I am in 2009, meeting with my dietician soon and starting to go to meetings again. I have officially started to eliminate the water from my diet and start eating like I should. I'm not going to toot my horn yet, it's been a day. But the only way to start something again is to start....and I did.
Now for the sad part. I at one point lost almost 60 lbs. I have now gained alot of my weight back since surgery.
Here is the hard naked truth......243.6
I'm pissed, disappointed, sick to my stomach, BUT I am starting over, that's all I can do. I got this surgery for a reason, I lost sight of what the Band can help me with and blew it off......now it needs to remain FRONT and CENTER.
So here's to a re-birth so to speak of this process and a great 2009!
Happy New Year!
258.5/243.6/140
The truth is plain and simple. I screwed up.....BAD.
I did all the BAD habits they tell you not to do....drink water for starters, actually that is were it started and got way way out of control. I was eating solely by drinking water and when I would get stuck, I would drink again and again and again. Now I know that last year wasn't my best year.....but the last 6 months of the year I could have gotten my butt in gear, but I didn't.
Instead I started my Bachelor's degree at night and filled my time and energy up with other things...all the while not seeing what had happened to my almost at one point 60 lb weight loss.
If you are a newbie to the LapBand, don't even read this and think "I would never do that", because I said the SAME EXACT THING. And I was doing quite well. Throw a little stress in my life, lose a job and boom, everything goes to hell in a handbasket.
But that was 2008. Now I am in 2009, meeting with my dietician soon and starting to go to meetings again. I have officially started to eliminate the water from my diet and start eating like I should. I'm not going to toot my horn yet, it's been a day. But the only way to start something again is to start....and I did.
Now for the sad part. I at one point lost almost 60 lbs. I have now gained alot of my weight back since surgery.
Here is the hard naked truth......243.6
I'm pissed, disappointed, sick to my stomach, BUT I am starting over, that's all I can do. I got this surgery for a reason, I lost sight of what the Band can help me with and blew it off......now it needs to remain FRONT and CENTER.
So here's to a re-birth so to speak of this process and a great 2009!
Happy New Year!
258.5/243.6/140
Monday, June 23, 2008
LapBand Support Group
So I went to the first LapBand support group through CDH, I was suprised to find that most everyone except two of us were Pre-op. I was able to give alot of advice which made me feel good, but I was sort of also hoping for some support on why I am having trouble getting back in the swing of things.
I did lose almost 4lbs, but over the weekend, I'm sure I gained it back.
Seeing all the people in that room at the stage I was at a year and a 1/2 ago made me think back to my commitment that I made to myself. There was a girl who was 8 weeks out from surgery, I can remember that time......I was soooo dedicated to doing everything right and lately I just haven't.
I guess I should just be proud that I went to the support group at all. Maybe I need a fill and I've got to STOP drinking that stupid water with meals.
Plus, I need to start exercising again, no excuses for me as it's beautiful out, I need my butt back on my bike or do the firm or anything!
I need a good kick in the ass is what I need. To impart my experiences on all of these people was nice, but I have to start practicing what I preach....
I did lose almost 4lbs, but over the weekend, I'm sure I gained it back.
Seeing all the people in that room at the stage I was at a year and a 1/2 ago made me think back to my commitment that I made to myself. There was a girl who was 8 weeks out from surgery, I can remember that time......I was soooo dedicated to doing everything right and lately I just haven't.
I guess I should just be proud that I went to the support group at all. Maybe I need a fill and I've got to STOP drinking that stupid water with meals.
Plus, I need to start exercising again, no excuses for me as it's beautiful out, I need my butt back on my bike or do the firm or anything!
I need a good kick in the ass is what I need. To impart my experiences on all of these people was nice, but I have to start practicing what I preach....
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Slowly but surely!
Well I did manage to lose about 3.4 lbs since Monday, I was not "perfectly" back on the horse this week, but better then I have been.
Next week.....exercising starts up again.
We bought a Nintendo Wii a few weeks ago and I was looking into the Wii fit, it really does seem cool and I have a friend who has it and she loves it. I also got suckered into buying "The Firm" off on an infomercial and it finally came in the mail, I have read reviews on it from 3rd party websites and people say they like it and it works, so I will probably try "The Firm" first and then see about the Wii fit, plus the Wii fit sells out minutes after it hit's the shelves!
The Firm: http://www.firmdirect.com/firm/ecs/main/index.html
Wii Fit: http://www.nintendo.com/wiifit/launch/?ref=
This next week I will be attending the LapBand support group which should be nice because I will be with fellow Bandsters, looking forward to it.
258.5/215.8/140
Next week.....exercising starts up again.
We bought a Nintendo Wii a few weeks ago and I was looking into the Wii fit, it really does seem cool and I have a friend who has it and she loves it. I also got suckered into buying "The Firm" off on an infomercial and it finally came in the mail, I have read reviews on it from 3rd party websites and people say they like it and it works, so I will probably try "The Firm" first and then see about the Wii fit, plus the Wii fit sells out minutes after it hit's the shelves!
The Firm: http://www.firmdirect.com/firm/ecs/main/index.html
Wii Fit: http://www.nintendo.com/wiifit/launch/?ref=
This next week I will be attending the LapBand support group which should be nice because I will be with fellow Bandsters, looking forward to it.
258.5/215.8/140
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Get Back on the Horse!
Well after many months of anxiety regarding my job situation, I decided to quit the job I took in March. I was there for two months and it wasn't what I was expecting and the IT factor was almost worse then the last position. So I left!
I finally made up my mind to CHANGE careers, it took almost 6 months to get to this point, but boy am I happy I did. I got an opportunity in the Accounting department at my old company. They made an EXCELLENT offer and I accepted, I started there on 6/9.
But with that now working out for me, it's time to focus on my weight. I realize now how easy it is to gain weight back even if you have the LapBand. It's not because the LapBand doesn't work, it's because "I" have to keep using it as a tool and "I" have to let it help me instead of sabotaging all my progress. My lowest weight was 194.6 back in Dec of 07.
Since then I sat in the 200-207 range for quite sometime. Now as of this Monday I got on the scale and almost fell off of it because it was a whoooooppping 219.2! I think the worse part is I went down like 4 sizes and bought a CRAP load of summer clothes in like size 18/20, even bought something in a 16. Now I can feel alot of these clothes feeling tight.....it pisses me off!
SHIT, that is not what I wanted to happen, but it has. And it's not like I don't know WHY it's happened, I have gone back to most of my old habits or at least for the last 2-3 months. I stopped exercising, I started eating more, I push all the crap down with water at meals (a BIG no no) and I just plain don't watch what I eat.
So that is what led me to get serious about this again. I realize this will be a LIFE long commitment and I will always struggle with my weight no matter what they put in my body. I have to conquer the mental part. The first year post-op is so awesome you are riding high on the progress you have made and then after awhile very slowly (at least for me) the old habits start to come back and then before you know it, you have gained almost 20lbs.
So I went to my first support group meeting at CDH since I moved my Bariatric care to Dr. Woodard instead of having to go all the way to Elk Grove Village. Don't get me wrong, my surgeon (Dr. Guske at Suburban Surgical Care through Alexian Brothers) was GREAT and I will miss the group, but I need my continued care to be closer and have support groups I know I can attend without making excuses. So the Nutritional meeting was tonight and the room was packed with people who had Gastric Bypass & LapBand! It was nice to hear again and see all the people who have made such great progress in their weight loss and to also hear about the struggles, because I am past the "honeymoon" phase and now I have to not reverse all my progress. I put way to much time/money/effort into this decision to let it slip away.
So I'm forgiving myself and moving forward, it was a great support group and I will be attending the LapBand specific group as well.
I just needed a little jump start......I think I got that tonight. It's funny all day I was making excuses in my head on reasons not to go, but I said if I don't go now and get my ASS BACK ON THE HORSE, when will I? So just go! So I did.
My official weekly weigh in is this Friday, I will post again over the weekend. I know I haven't posted in a LONG time, Jilly would be disappointed in me, but she's busy having a baby soon! Go Jilly!
Over and Out!
I finally made up my mind to CHANGE careers, it took almost 6 months to get to this point, but boy am I happy I did. I got an opportunity in the Accounting department at my old company. They made an EXCELLENT offer and I accepted, I started there on 6/9.
But with that now working out for me, it's time to focus on my weight. I realize now how easy it is to gain weight back even if you have the LapBand. It's not because the LapBand doesn't work, it's because "I" have to keep using it as a tool and "I" have to let it help me instead of sabotaging all my progress. My lowest weight was 194.6 back in Dec of 07.
Since then I sat in the 200-207 range for quite sometime. Now as of this Monday I got on the scale and almost fell off of it because it was a whoooooppping 219.2! I think the worse part is I went down like 4 sizes and bought a CRAP load of summer clothes in like size 18/20, even bought something in a 16. Now I can feel alot of these clothes feeling tight.....it pisses me off!
SHIT, that is not what I wanted to happen, but it has. And it's not like I don't know WHY it's happened, I have gone back to most of my old habits or at least for the last 2-3 months. I stopped exercising, I started eating more, I push all the crap down with water at meals (a BIG no no) and I just plain don't watch what I eat.
So that is what led me to get serious about this again. I realize this will be a LIFE long commitment and I will always struggle with my weight no matter what they put in my body. I have to conquer the mental part. The first year post-op is so awesome you are riding high on the progress you have made and then after awhile very slowly (at least for me) the old habits start to come back and then before you know it, you have gained almost 20lbs.
So I went to my first support group meeting at CDH since I moved my Bariatric care to Dr. Woodard instead of having to go all the way to Elk Grove Village. Don't get me wrong, my surgeon (Dr. Guske at Suburban Surgical Care through Alexian Brothers) was GREAT and I will miss the group, but I need my continued care to be closer and have support groups I know I can attend without making excuses. So the Nutritional meeting was tonight and the room was packed with people who had Gastric Bypass & LapBand! It was nice to hear again and see all the people who have made such great progress in their weight loss and to also hear about the struggles, because I am past the "honeymoon" phase and now I have to not reverse all my progress. I put way to much time/money/effort into this decision to let it slip away.
So I'm forgiving myself and moving forward, it was a great support group and I will be attending the LapBand specific group as well.
I just needed a little jump start......I think I got that tonight. It's funny all day I was making excuses in my head on reasons not to go, but I said if I don't go now and get my ASS BACK ON THE HORSE, when will I? So just go! So I did.
My official weekly weigh in is this Friday, I will post again over the weekend. I know I haven't posted in a LONG time, Jilly would be disappointed in me, but she's busy having a baby soon! Go Jilly!
Over and Out!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Happy Bandiversary to me!
Yes, it's been one year today since I had the LapBand placed in my body! I can't believe it!
I'm still not totally happy with the total I lost, but like Jilly said in her comment, could I have lost 55 lbs. on my own.....the answer would be a resounding NO!
So 55lbs. done, another 60 or so to go.
My hubby got me the nicest card(s) this morning, I cried, he has been my rock through all of this work crap and supporting me with the LapBand, I love him so much I just can't imagine my life without him.
So to Mikey....thank you for your love, support and having to watch me PB all the time in the past year, you are the best!
This is one of the cards he gave me:
When pride in yourself
is the wind in your wings,
how high and how far
you can soar.
When hope and hard work
are the sails of your ship,
what remarkable worlds
you'll explore....
When dreams are the stars
that you never lose sight of
in spite of the dark or distress,
in time you'll discover,
wherever life takes you,
the treasure your heart calls
Success.
Congratulations!
Then he wrote, "I am truly proud of you!! 1 year down, many to go! Congrats Baby! I really love you!! Mike"
God, I love him!
Well my official Bandiversary weight is 203.0
55.5 lbs lost!
I'm still not totally happy with the total I lost, but like Jilly said in her comment, could I have lost 55 lbs. on my own.....the answer would be a resounding NO!
So 55lbs. done, another 60 or so to go.
My hubby got me the nicest card(s) this morning, I cried, he has been my rock through all of this work crap and supporting me with the LapBand, I love him so much I just can't imagine my life without him.
So to Mikey....thank you for your love, support and having to watch me PB all the time in the past year, you are the best!
This is one of the cards he gave me:
When pride in yourself
is the wind in your wings,
how high and how far
you can soar.
When hope and hard work
are the sails of your ship,
what remarkable worlds
you'll explore....
When dreams are the stars
that you never lose sight of
in spite of the dark or distress,
in time you'll discover,
wherever life takes you,
the treasure your heart calls
Success.
Congratulations!
Then he wrote, "I am truly proud of you!! 1 year down, many to go! Congrats Baby! I really love you!! Mike"
God, I love him!
Well my official Bandiversary weight is 203.0
55.5 lbs lost!
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